Thread:Klonoamiyumi/@comment-5961377-20160920092054/@comment-4423426-20161023010600

There are various reasons I didn't get around to this sooner. The obvious ones being tumblr posts taking up a lot of my time, but also because I am tired of this as well. I feel like it's a bit worthless to list the reasons for why things went wrong, because I have in the past and I've repeated it so many times. I don't hold any actual grudge or hatred to you. I mean-- I don't exactly think "ugh Game" every day. but  the reason this has been ongoing for so long is because when you do have a problem with something, you eventually drop it and leave it unresolved, and because it becomes unresolved-- you start using lyrics or jabs as a means to internalize how you feel about it, which doesn't feel up-front and can you blame a lot of us for  taking it that way, when not only did you state on a blog that your lyrics internalize how you feel, but it keeps happening time and time again? I actually did a test with this once. You remember that time a few months ago when you said you thought of tracking down users locations to someone? It seemed a bit off to me. I was like "what is he trying to imply-- that's a bit creepy" so I asked you just in case I took it the wrong way. I asked you what it meant, and for you to clarify if you meant it a different way. Your response even though I gave you the benefit of the doubt, was you not answering me properly. You phrased your response in such a way that you still wanted to be mysterious and for lack of a better word "edgy". When I refer to you making jabs all the time, I mean such as earlier when something in the chatroom is going on, and instead of outright saying what you think about it, you'll make some very vague statement that doesn't clarify much,  and you'll get involved when it's not necessary. Apart from this chat session just now, there hasn't been anything major you've done since, but I really have been checked out for a while. One trait I admire, and that you and I share in common is the very thing you mentioned. The fact you forgive. I don't feel proud of the times I went all-out, but that's because you'd start something, and then wouldn't resolve it. I regret it a lot later which is why I apologize to you, but a lot of times this is based on you making those jabs. If you want to say something in chat and it's bothering you, I feel like you should either say it or not risk it. I often don't like the religion/politics debates on chat that you engage in sometimes, but I leave you to it. I don't get involved. Often you will get involved, and make comments such as "meh" (which is  probably the most tamest way to show your annoyance, but it's still kinda memed on) or you'll make a jab at someone, and you won't say it openly because  you don't want to confront them on it. I can tell,  and I just don't understand why it's necessary if you're not actually going to directly address what's going on. It's like what happened earlier in the chat when you said "whining and excuses"  when me and VHS were having a discussion. There was no clear indicator who you were talking about,  and it  just complicated matters and as a result, if you're not clear enough, it will be taken the wrong way whether you intended it or not, and isn't it much easier and much less stressful to state your true feelings in a civilised way, without us having to call you out on it, and it then resulting in it being impossible to tell what you truly mean, and complicating things? I've said before that what Stick did with the  whole Jesus thing(see I'm outright calling him out by name here)  was too much, and was uncalled for, and you are totally justified in that, because he was purposely trying to bait you into getting annoyed.

These are my problems with your behaviour, but no. Believe it or not, I'm not constantly annoyed at you each and every day. It's just when certain incidents are brought up, or you do more jabs then it's like old problems re-emerge that I usually for the most part had forgotten about. The whole tracking people down incident was the last thing I called you out on, and I remember not regretting that, and that's why I didn't apologize for that because I didn't go too hard on you(winky aside) with that. I recall you being all right for a while before that incident but I can never tell, because sometimes you return to how you were in full force. I don't harbor anger to you all the time. Only when you  bring up old topics in chat, or hint towards them. If I did, I'd be like my 2011-early 2013 Wiki self where I'd constantly be starting things with you based on the incident that occured.