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 Myers-Briggs testing reveals that I am of the ISTP type (Introversion, Sensing, Thinking, Perception):

"Cool onlookers, quiet, reserved observing and analyzing life with detached curiosity and unexpected flashes of original humor. Usually interested in impersonal principles, cause and effect, or how and why mechanical things work. Exert themselves no more than they think necessary, because any waste of energy would be inefficient. Live their outer life more with sensing, inner life more with thinking."

I consider myself very slow to anger, and would rather remain calm, collected and reserved. I prefer concrete information rather than abstract or theoretical concepts. I make decisions based upon logic rather than subjective emotions. I enjoy having time to think alone and having the freedom to work at my own pace. I prefer to focus on the present and take on things one day at a time. I would rather acquiesce with someone rather than start a potential argument.

Do not hesitate to ask for help, I will lend you a hand and assist you to the best of my ability.

I constantly look for ways for me to verbalize my deepest and darkest thoughts, desires and fears without anybody really knowing what I’m specifically talking about...

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Feels= Sometimes people do actually feel that way Sometimes your life feels like it's caving in on you Sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist like they just want to curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death Saying "I don't want to exist" isn't saying "I want to go die" It's saying "I wish that for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel" I don't think there's anything wrong with that If you don't know how it feels to feel this way then you have no place to judge anyone who does

When you care for someone more than they deserve you get hurt more than you deserve

MY HEAD IS A PRISON AND NO ONE VISITS

It's the dark of night and I'm at the end of the line Alone in my head and waiting for something divine to answer me... Drowning to silence, the internal violence, I pray to make it through The storm winds are growing as my dreams are blowing away JUST LIKE YOU

Out on the edge, the moonlight reflecting from me The collapse of the waves echoing internally... as I CRY OUT If I'm living my life, then why does it feel like my HEART WILL BREAK IN TWO Failure is calling, as my dreams are falling APART JUST LIKE YOU

It doesn't sneak up on you It's always been there Lurking in the shadows You know it's there but you can't fight it When the moment is right, it swallows you whole, and everything you ever loved gets swallowed too You learn to want the sadness, to crave it It is the only feeling you have left The only proof that you are alive They don't understand They don't care So why tell them? Sometimes you feel perfect like the world is finally back to how it is meant to be But then something small changes that A comment, a picture, a thought and it all comes spiraling in again And the blackness is now your enemy as you try to come up for air As you try to hold on to that small glimmer of hope you once had But it is not a glimmer of hope anymore It never was Your mind was just tricking you and now you're drowning Now you're just an empty shell

It sucks when everything's doing fine then it all crashes again And the worst part is I really don't want to try and put it all back together again but I have to

I've made a choice that I regret A painful picture that I can't forget Now what I see, is what I get

CHAINED to what I can't reclaim I'll never be the same

It's too late to look back. I've got no way to switch back.

It's too late to look back AIN'T OKAY I'VE GOT NO WAY TO SWITCH BACK

We are thrown away, in the house you made of every stolen moment

Don't pretend, I know how this ends, and who you are in secret

All our hopes are fast asleep, Spill the wrist of what you'll never be

Something's wrong inside, We are feeding flies with pieces of ambition

Prison skin, Keeps us safety pinned i'll whisper your incision

Hostile strum and icepick tongue, Shelter here from everyone

And I'll never say that everything's alright, That when we're gone we'll sleep with satellites, We're killing more than the loneliness behind the eyes, Sometimes the best you can do is just survive

...just survive.

''Libra: Consistently seeking peace and acceptance. They give themselves endlessly trying to make others happy and in the end are left asking who they really are. Because of this, they lack self-confidence and desperately try complete themselves through the approval of others. They're always tired from trying to prove themselves but just can't will themselves to stop.''

HOW CAN EMPTINESS FEEL SO HEAVY???

I don't know how I feel about anything anymore. My mind is a mess.

Do you think it possible some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return?

Just because someone looks happy doesn't mean they are because even a white rose has a black shadow

I'm not clear how it is that I ended up here then let me help you clear your clouded memory IT'S EASY because nobody in the world could know you better than me don't get all sentimental using up your prime this pile of sh*t you're shovelin' is gettin' hard to climb With my hands on my mind I hold wounds that won't mend well, just stop tryin' to be something that you're not MAGGOT you'll never shake me never break me  and never overtake me With my eyes open wide I can see it's the end Normality is not a word I understand AT ALL I set myself up for the fall Withdrawing deep into the hole This ISOLATED LITTLE CELL leaves me cold and faded

Control my tiniest motions Withhold my simplest needs I wish you weren't this close now I wish you didn't succeed Yeah, so what - it's another day You're gonna take it from me anyway I can't seem to remember now what it was like to live life before you, symbiont I want to go but I have to stay It doesn't matter if I leave because you'd be there anyway I need you and you need me Cause you HATE ME and I HATE YOU but you NEED ME and I NEED YOU

You know what it's like to lose control The emptiness inside you feeding your soul I can't escape or move from here Seems like I'm paralyzed to the core help me

Their shadows are tearing me into tiny pieces I don't know where I am I just remember frustration My conscience is telling me that I have to move on I don't know where to go I need to unlearn my weakness Why does a second seem so long This can't be a dream because this pain feels real and time can't heal

escApe When everyone's gone I will be left behind but that's okay that's what I had in mind I know where you've been I know what you have done I don't need you and I won't ever need anyone Our unity was meant to be destroyed You tried to kill what made me what I am Do not ever try to be a part of me I'm a broken soul which is waiting to be free I've become a loner No one can ever hurt me again when there's none you can trust you're gonna have to be your only friend I'm a loner I don't need you I won't ever need anyone I'm a loner I'm alone here Since everyone is gone I am alone but maybe that's better because I can't hurt anyone I have blurry memories of the times we had we dreamt of eternity but I've become a loner instead.

Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ Mᴀʏʙᴇ I sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴅɪғғᴇʀᴇɴᴛ, Mᴀʏʙᴇ I sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ. Mᴀʏʙᴇ I sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ғɪɢʜᴛ, Mᴀʏʙᴇ I sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ. Mᴀʏʙᴇ I sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛʀʏ, Mᴀʏʙᴇ I sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ɴᴏᴛ. Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄʀᴏss ᴍʏ ᴍɪɴᴅ, Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪʀʀɪᴛᴀᴛᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʙʀᴀɪɴ. Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴅʀɪᴠᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ɪɴsᴀɴᴇ, Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʀᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʙʀᴀɪɴ ᴀᴡᴀʏ. Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ, Tʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʜᴇʟᴘ ʙᴜᴛ ᴀᴠᴏɪᴅ. Pʀᴏʟᴏɴɢɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ, Pʀᴏʟᴏɴɢɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟ ʟɪғᴇ. Sɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ɪᴅʟʏ ʙʏ, Sɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ɪᴅʟʏ ᴀᴡᴀɪᴛɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ.

ᴛʀᴀᴘᴘᴇᴅ Fᴇᴇʟ sᴏ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ, Lᴏsᴛ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴠᴏɪᴅ, Dʀɪᴠᴇɴ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴀɪɴ, Isᴏʟᴀᴛᴇᴅ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴄɪᴠɪʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴ, Lᴇғᴛ ᴛᴏ ʀᴏᴛ, Lᴇғᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅɪᴇ. Lɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʟᴇғᴛ, Iɢɴᴏʀᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴍᴀɴʏ, Sᴀᴅᴅᴇɴɪɴɢ ᴘᴀᴄᴇ, Cʀᴜsʜɪɴɢ ʙʟᴏᴡs ʟᴇғᴛ ᴛᴏ sɪᴛ, Nᴏ ʀɪɢʜᴛs ʟᴇғᴛ, Nᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴄᴀɴ ʀᴇᴍᴀɪɴ, Nᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴄᴀɴ ʟᴀsᴛ. Hᴏᴘᴇ ɪs ɢᴏɴᴇ, Aʟʟ ʙᴜᴛ ᴅᴀʀᴋɴᴇss ɪs ɢᴏɴᴇ

Isn't it sad when you feel alone but you're surrounded by people who care about you but they can't help you no one can help you only you can help yourself to try and get rid of the sadness you harbor inside You think it goes away but every now and again it comes knocking at your door throwing you in a pool of your own worries and thoughts and anxieties and that's when you feel like you're drowning I don't know if it's depression or a long winded sadness Whatever it is it hits like a bus and all I want to do is sit in a room and pity myself It's not a way to live but for now it's reality

You’re sad and I want to lighten the mood but I don’t want to accidentally disrespect your feelings You’re sad but I’m a lousy person and I never know what to say to cheer you up at times like this I am so sorry You’re happy now but I still feel bad for not helping you through bad spots You aren't boring I just suck at conversations I’m sorry I’m not ignoring you I just don’t know what to say I feel like I have nothing interesting to say so I don’t say anything at all and I’m really sorry don’t stop talking to me

What the hell is wrong with me? Don't fit in with anybody How could this happen to me? WIDE AWAKE, I'M BORED AND I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP and every night is the worst night ever I’m just a kid, and life is a nightmare I’m just a kid, I know that it’s not fair NOBODY CARES ’cause I’m alone and the world is having more fun than me

I don't even know what's wrong with me anymore

I want to be happy but something inside me screams that I don't deserve it

I hate getting emotional because it means that I actually have feelings to hide

You'll get bored of me You'll get annoyed at me You'll hate me You'll stop talking to me You'll leave me eventually just like everybody else

I don't think they realize how sleepless nights can affect you or how overthinking slowly kills you I don't think they know how it can turn your mind into thoughts you wish weren't yours

I wish I didn't care about anything but instead I care too much about everything

''Why is it so hard for us to talk about our true feelings? Are we too scared and afraid of the truth we already know? I wish we both could be a little more brave.''

''I have noticed that when all the lights are on, people tend to talk about what they are doing – their outer lives. Sitting round in candlelight or firelight, people start to talk about how they are feeling – their inner lives. They speak subjectively, they argue less, there are longer pauses. To sit alone without any electric light is curiously creative. I have my best ideas at dawn or at nightfall, but not if I switch on the lights – then I start thinking about projects, deadlines, demands, and the shadows and shapes of the house become objects, not suggestions, things that need to done, not a background to thought.''

The fact that I'm silent doesn't mean I have nothing to say.

No one notices your sadness No one notices your tears No one notices your pain but they all notice your mistakes

I care. I always care. This is my problem.

''The truth is, I'm one of the those few people who actually cares when I ask "What's wrong?". The only problem is I usually have no idea what to say afterwards or how to make it better. I try not to use phrases like "That sucks" or "I'm sorry", but I still can never find the right words to say. But I promise, I'll always listen. I guess that's all I can do...''

How am I supposed to get rid of all the people who make me sad when they are all I have?

It's sad that some people aren't waiting for their happy ending anymore They're just waiting for the end

I don't tell people things because I know it will hurt them and I don't want to put them through that so I try to figure it out on my own and when I do that I always end up hurt more but I didn't hurt you and that's what's more important that even though I was shattered you didn't have to worry about being cut on my broken pieces

I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that

''I know what it feels like, and it sucks, it really does, when you are up in the middle of the night thinking about the things that you've suddenly became aware of. The things you’re missing out on right now, and all the people who are not close to you anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who have meant the world to you who have forgotten about you forever, and you get this awful feeling that’s kind of like a mix between loneliness and nostalgia.''

What I say: I'm bored What I mean:  None of my usual hobbies are stimulating enough for me anymore because I am dead inside and I am desperately craving human interaction in a vain attempt to keep myself from slipping into the abyss of insanity

''Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.''

''The best kinds of people are the ones that come into your life, and make you see the sun where you once saw clouds. The people that believe in you so much, you start to believe in you too. The people that love you, simply for being you. The once in a lifetime kind of people.''

I live two lives in one I hate liars yet I am one I say I'm fine while deep down I'm stuck on page one I want to be happy yet I can't be I believe in better yet wander towards the worst My brain tells me one thing while my heart feels another I tear myself apart without the help of others Living two lives takes twice the work how much longer can i face the challenge?

You know, I think one of the worst feelings is finding out that you didn't mean as much to someone as you thought you did, and you just feel stupid, and because you looked desperate, about caring too much.

I have nothing now but praise for my life. I'm not unhappy. I cry a lot because I miss people. They die and I can't stop them. They leave me and I love them more... What I dread is the isolation. There are so many beautiful things in the world which I will have to leave when I die, but I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready.

It scares me that one day I won’t remember this day, this night, this moment. It scares me that one day, I’ll forget what it feels like to be this young, this full of potential. I’m wrapped up in a million things, and I feel like I’m letting time pass by, letting moments blur together and not grasping all that I can before everything changes

What can I say, I'm a sucker for abandoned stuff, misplaced stuff, forgotten stuff, any old stuff which despite the light of progress and all that, still vanishes every day like shadows at noon, goings unheralded, passings unmourned, well, you get the drift.

They remind me of me.

So love is a border town abortion Eliminate everything I thought that I knew I'm blindsided by your genocide decision  i'm just a bit jilted and giving the devil her due SUCKED IN BY INSINCERITY

****ED BY INDULGENT VANITY

You deserve every bit of what you're getting I'm burning the bridge but you started the flame If you think that this is all a bit excessive  the empathy and integrity match what you gave I CAN'T WASH OUT YOUR AFTERTASTE

FROM WHEN YOU SHOWED YOUR SECOND FACE

in full de vo tion i for got my fears to comfort yours

i guess re co very means YOU DON'T NEED ME anymore...

SO SHA LLOW SO HO LLOW you only loved yourself...

''WELL SO LONG''

AND FAREWELL

IT'S NOT GOODBYE CAUSE I'LL SEE YOU IN HELL

With nothing useful to say and no one to listen to it Filling the deep with the pain, I slowly sink into it Consider questionable things to try to get me through it I've tried to push it away but I always give into it Long for the taste of the rain that finally helps subdue it  And washes this all away We're losing light And strength of will The darkened depths beckoning still Then we hold on against the tide

We're slowly losing ground And hope is harder to maintain We know the prayers we prayed Feel lost like tears in the rain The water is pulling down The moon's eclipsing the sun The ending that we knew would come Has finally begun

Hole in your face with pointless noise spilling out

Think about what you say before you open your ******* mouth

Everywhere we look

And everything we hear

You can only imagine how good we'll feel when you finally disappear

It's so sad...

When I picture your face...

Gone before you knew your place

Your dreams - Let them go,

Let them go

With your pleas of desperation

NO ONE wants to HEAR

You're dreaming Outside life's great - but inside you're screaming It's not how you thought it'd be?

ᴀɪᴍʟᴇssʟʏ Are you hoping for something? ᴘᴀᴛɪᴇɴᴛʟʏ Waiting for some sign? ᴍɪɴᴅғᴜʟʟʏ It's time to jump in or simply get the hell out ғɪɴᴀʟʟʏ I think you better make up your mind

You're screaming ''Bam! The smack of the truth wakes you from your dreaming'' So inconveniently

ɪʀᴏɴʏ It sucks that this was all for nothing ᴘᴀɪɴғᴜʟʟʏ Your plans were redesigned ᴍᴏᴜʀɴғᴜʟʟʏ It's a shame you didn't stand for something ғɪɴᴀʟʟʏ Now it's too late to make up your mind

You're life's been overrated Hopelessly complicated It's a shame how long you've waited Constantly constipated

I'm my one and only friend I am my worst enemy I find new methods to pretend that this is not reality Don't be lonely  now i'm your only  just stay far away from me Userbars=

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