Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-5961377-20160223152724/@comment-9300845-20160224133050

I don't know if I can confess to every issue I've had with people here without getting too nasty and personal. Either I'd mince my words to avoid further animosity or just clam up and endure people's obnoxiousness ... as evidenced in this very post.

I'm not entirely without fault, either. I'm a very private lone wolf, have a tendency to hold grudges over petty and dumb matters, and rarely ever forgive. It's just not in my nature to be social and open.

In the past, I've tried to resolve my issues with other users on chat, but time and again, I've failed. I've sometimes wished that I could just permanently ban people without consequences, but I refuse to give in temptation to abuse my rights that way. Eventually I had to accept that trying to change other people's behaviors was beyond my ability, and removed myself from chat. And to be honest, I think I'm better off not forcing myself to put up with people in chat. Although I do miss talking with some of the users there, and I've been told that I'm missed as well.

After all of what I've said, I'd like to apologize for my past actions. I've felt I sometimes got a little overzealous and aggressive with my admin rights, especially when it came to banning. I honestly fear I might become corrupt and be deemed abusive. So recently I've tried to dial myself down and allow other admins and mods to handle discipline with misbehaving users (and they've done a great job.) In the future, I'll try not to be so overzealous or aggressive when dealing with rule violations. Being a mod or an admin isn't a walk in the park, and one can only stay patient for so long without going mad.

I could've easily walked away from all of this crap and quit forever, but I'm still committed to this wiki.