Thread:WaterDemonBaku/@comment-4423426-20160229200202/@comment-24987498-20160301015346

I'm going to go ahead and contribute my piece as well.

Here's the thing, Water... When Russ told me about some of the stuff that was bothering him about you, I agreed with him. But then you vented to me anbout it and I found myself agreeing with you more. I've been sort of a double agent as of late, and I need to fix that about myself. Gossip is toxic- it ruins relationships, friendships, and pretty much everything. I've always had a gossip problem and so I intend to use this incident as a "Never again" lesson:

- I never again want to cause arguments that escalate into broken trust/friendships.

- I never again want to participate in these either, though it'll be difficult.

- I never again want to be hypocritical towards my family, friends, and boyfriend.

- I never again want to be the double agent.

I had a dream last night that sort of reawakened me to the pain that this type of incident causes. In all honesty, this incident has been plaguing my mind- and no, Russ and Water, that is neither of you guys' faults, just mine- and I want to make things right with everyone here. I guess I should announce my official Wiki break somewhere other than here, but it's coming, just so you know. But in the meantime I want to right every wrong I've committed while being a member of this community. Right now I'm going to discuss you, Water, since I've already told Russ everything I needed to say to him.

First of all, you're an awesome friend to me. You're understanding and polite and interesting, and just all-around nice. I'm grateful for people like you who make my Wiki experience more bearable. But I've said things about you behind your back to Russ, and I basically agreed with his points- points that were made from temporary anger, not deep-seated feelings, as he stated above- and for that I am so sorry. If I could turn back the clock and change everything, I would.

Well, to Russ I'll say once again: I'm sorry for betraying confidential information.

I know trust has been lost on all three sides because of this, and I plan to do all that I can to fix this, not only for you guys, but for myself. I was in need of a change before and I know now that I'm ready to execute it. I'm just sorry I had to realize that in this way. I hope you all can forgive me.