Thread:WaterDemonBaku/@comment-4423426-20160229200202

I don't think  that you're part of the reason the Wiki is bad. Listen, people say things they don't mean to when they're stressed, and having said that I looked all over Google Chat and I cannot find me saying that, and Cici and I have not talked in public chat too, because I've constantly fallen asleep on the keyboard. I'm not ruling out the fact it happened, and hell-- I'm not denying it either. I kind of remember it myself but there's no evidence to suggest it, and if I see any then I can be proven right, but cast aside things like that. I have said some things about you-- I won't deny that and it's nothing I haven't told you on chat that I did on that chat session, but I cannot for the life of me find this alleged statement Cici told you about. If I had have said it it means nothing. You're actually one of my favourite users on the Wiki. I don't want to delve into what got me annoyed on a public message wall, and am literally only typing this here to show I have nothing to hide, because I don't really want this to devolve into an arguement. I want this to be an apology thread. Let's address some important points

First of all, you're one of my favourite users on the Wiki. Yes, that PM you sent me before bothered me but I think you're an all-around fun person to chat to and any gripes I had about you were most likely to do with the ongoing sex talk debate on chat,  and you know what? In the past I've said similair things about Game before, but I didn't mean them and most of my gripes with him are misunderstandings I usually resolve with him. Just as an example. and for all the times you've told me that my apologies don't seem geniune, I'd like to state a few things about that. I could just easily have said "I'm sorry" or some very quick statement, but I feel I always owe it to people to give a very detailed explanation as to why I'm apologizing. If I didn't really care, I would not bother with that at all, and another thing-- some users on chat feel the same way how I've felt in the past towards Game, and there's no pressure for me to do these aplogies I keep doing, but I do them because I feel remorse. We already discussed many of this on the other night, and to you it was resolved, and to me it isn't, because I don't want you leaving the Wiki thinking of those statements Cici told you, no matter if I said them or not. It's been resolved, so what would inspire me to make an apology post as detailed as this, if no one has even pressured me for it? No one has made me do this apology-- I'm making this apology because I am truly sorry, and I actually feel remorse about this kind of stuff, believe it or not.

Second of all, I know someone's going to accuse me of pointing fingers, but I never forced you and John to stop the lovey-dovey stuff on chat, and neither did I say "okay never talk to eachother on main at all" You told me you felt if I was a friend, I wouldn't do that to you, but here's the thing. I didn't. Never did I rant at you for it, and I geniunely thought that as your friend, I told you how that made you feel. I thought you did that out of respect for me, and even John said so in a PM before, but I was never the one to get really angry at you for it, and this is the pointing fingers part--- Stick was the one who really went overboard, and even if I was venting to him in PM about it, I never once gave him the clear to say all that in chat, and he wasn't tactful about it, and it feels like you're now taking that situation, and thinking that I stopped you talking to John. But in terms of depression, I never said to you "You talking to John at all gets me depressed" it was the glomping statements and such, and it felt like you were flaunting your relationship in front of me, and you know mine's not going so well. I didn't force you to stop. I never actually got mad at you. I geniunely thought you did that as a friend, and never did I Intend for you to stop talking to John in main chat overall, and you've even still done that and it's been fine.

Third of all, and the last point I should make, because I'm not delving into the kind of things I did in chat the other night:

I already said in a recent chat session I made your leave thread about users more than you, and I acknowledged that, but you know first-hand how occupied I am with Tumblr posts, and how my priorities are kind of a mess right now. I don't want to just say "Okay I respect your decision" and I have a lengthy reply planned, but I can't rush it out and situations such as this make doing that difficult, and it's already telling how I've flat-out ignored other threads until I'm ready, such as Game's thread about making the Wiki better, which took me days to reply to, and the User Awards one.

If it wasn't already apparent, I am sorry and if this thread doesn't seem geniune to you-- at least witness the points I'm making because I really tried with this one, and the last thing I want is you leaving after the statement I allegedly made. I'll even show you evidence of me being unable to find it if you ask in a PM or something, and if anyone actually finds said evidence, I'll accept that and even if I have said that, we all say things we regret when we are angry, and  if I said that then what memes was I on son 